Hi, friends. I should probably start by stating the obvious: I took a short break from this blog for the past two months. I have been writing newsletters every other Sunday to stay creative and in touch with you all, but as for my regularly scheduled blog posts, there has been a bit of a lull. A few of you have even reached out to check on me, which honestly means the world to me. After much time to reflect, I thought I’d finally explain why.
Many things changed after I turned 30 back in March. Perhaps I could blame it on my Saturn Return, or the fact that I was very single for the first time in my adult life, but I had a lot of time to think about me—just me, and what I wanted, for a change. While I have enjoyed blogging here for the past several years, and particularly the beginning half of this year, there was definitely a shift in motivation once the summer hit.
The best way I could describe it is this: I felt like I wasn’t aligned anymore, like my brain and my heart weren’t matching up, like I was going through the motions, like I was just creating regular content for the sake of it because it was just what I’ve always done. It felt akin to being on autopilot. When I finally stopped blogging, slowed down, and tried to figure out why I was feeling this way, I realized it was because blogging was taking up a lot of time, when I wanted to use that time someplace else.
For those of you who don’t know, I have been slowllyyyy working on a book of my journal entries, with the hopes of publishing it one day as a prose/essay collection. I’ve dreamt of being an author ever since I was a child, and I’ve been journaling for over 18 years with the sole purpose of preserving myself in this way someday.
While I’ve enjoyed blogging here over recent years, I’d be lying if I said it didn’t take away time from working on this book. It simply has. Blogging has always been just a side project for me—something I don’t do to make money, but simply because I enjoy it. My day job as a Brand Copywriter (which I also enjoy and pays my bills!) already takes up 40+ hours of my week, so I need to make a little more space in my life in other areas.
So—what does this mean? It means I’ll still be blogging here when I can, but posts will be less frequent, and more “personal,” than before. For those of you who have been reading my newsletter, posts will start to feel more like that: like I’m popping in to update a friend. I’d love to share with you all how my book-writing process is going, and how I’m staying grounded and organized, instead of creating weekly evergreen content for the sake of it. Then, once I’m finished with my book, I will revisit the direction of this blog. Only time will tell.
After much reflection—with myself and my therapist—both my brain and my heart are finally feeling more aligned. They’re both telling me I need to slow down, focus, and finish this book, finally. So, I’m going to do just that.
I will be taking most of December off from both this blog and my newsletter to revamp this site and prepare a book-writing plan for the new year. I was also recently gifted a Gold Membership on Ko-Fi (thank you, Nigel!), so if you’d like to support me in any way, feel free to visit that page. Starting in January, I’ll be offering supporter-only updates and offerings to those who do—including my favorite: handwritten thank you notes. Meanwhile, feel free to follow me on Twitter and Instagram @meganportorreal for daily content, word count check-ins, and updates.
While I’m a little sad that I have to dial back blogging, I’m even more excited to dive into my journals and share my life’s work (LITERALLY! My journal entries from the past 18 years are the most personal things I’ve ever written), with the world someday—at last.
I hope you’ll come along for the ride.